Michelle, 050296
I'm not perfect, so deal with it.
Monday, September 5, 2011
it'll destroy you someday
hey there, long time since i got here. oh well, i rlly need a place to talk about stuff. you know, so I came here.
so anyway, this blog post is for you, i hope you read, but i hope you don't read it too. yes i'm weird like that alright. so, i read some of your blog post, I'm rlly didn't mean to hurt you that bad ok. i'm sorry, i feel rlly bad. but on the other hand i got hurt too anyway. so do you call this fair? sometimes i rlly think i'm mad selfish, maybe i don't have to think that i am, because i already am selfish. i know that talking things out will work, because i always want to talk things out whenever there's an issue, but this time, it's different. something's holding me back, telling me no, you shouldnt you want to get hurt again? truth is I don't even know when you rlly hurt me. for the pass few days i cried, everytime you crossed my mind. the thoughts of how I used to stayover your house almost every saturday night, how we always sneaked out to meet each other, how we walked our dogs together, how we gave each other presents randomly because we got 'together', how we took care of your terrapins together. I miss those times so much, I miss you. so tell me why the fuck is something holding me back? Everyone's telling me to talk to you, but i can't. is it that I'm too ashamed, is it that I'm scared. what? idk, that's why I told you I was fucked, it's strange how I miss you so much and yet I say I don't want this friendship anymore. I won't mind throwing it away. I know I bitch talk about you alot, yes that's cause I am one. And I'm glad that you didn't do the same, so I feel that well you don't deserve a friend like me, because I'm rlly bad. Truth is no one deserves me. I'm rlly glad that there are actually people out that who love me, but I'm sorry guys, I will let you down in the future like how I always do. Well, I dont know how to change, to be a better person, it's so hard. sorry, it's so messy. well, there's just too much on my mind that I can seem to put them in place. Right now, all I want to do is hug you so tight and tell you that I'm rlly sorry for all the fck I made you go through and thanks. But no, that won't happen. Because I don't dare. And for those who have this until this far, thanks for reading all these crap yeah. oh and, not not some relationship, it's just a friend. A friend who is rlly impt to me, you know, like more then friends but less then lovers. ya.
oh well, bye then.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Baby You're My Firework
I've been so busy. It's a long time since I came here. Well, I wanted to blog v long ago, but I just can't create a post, don't know why. But, now can already! Anyway, I'm gonna stay home today. ): I want to get a job! Any job out there? Oh, yesterday, I bought this pair of zara pants for 10 bucks, it was for kids. and omg, it's too small. actually, i just need it to be slightly bigger. but still, i can still wear it. it's super nice. (: Don't really have much to say. Byebyebye.
Why didn't I treasure you when I could, now that you're gone,
I just can't stop feeling guilty, the way I treated you.
All I want to say is, I'm sorry.
Can we at least have one memory?
♥
Friday, September 3, 2010
Amazing, Just The Way You Are
last day of school today. (; I'm gonna study like shit during the hols, gonna ban myself from going out, sat and sun will be my last days of going out! gonna go flee tmr, hope it's not gonna be weird. anw, I'm listening to covers, gosh, some of them are really good. (: hehe. oh, went to pizza hut but left early for tuition. ah, nothing much, bye.
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Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Beyond What I Can Control
I didnt lose the stupid 1kg okay. shut up about 3km. I didnt even run 2. damn it la. but it's okay, cos swimming was damn fun. claudia didnt wear bikini. ): and she was damn lame, cause she went to put sunblock, worst thing, she got alot tanner. laugh. I didnt get tan at all, even when I didnt put sunblock. anw, i'm going to sleep at 10 today! okay, maybe 10.30. ah, whatever. bye.
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Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Just Live And Breathe
And Try Not To Die Again
I didn't come here yesterday, but I want to say, I really had fun at Clarke Quay with Charmaine. Bought lots of stickies! Took photos and I might upload later. anw, today was awesome too. Had teacher's day celebration. it was v cute. but aces day suck the shit out. anw, gave teachers stickies. some teachers. after that went back to pri school with sophia and saw Mrs Poh. really miss pri school. i miss so much. after went back to school, met ashley leow, then went to her house. ashley wrote this bunch of post-its for me. 'Hi mich, you're beside me and we're whispering, whispering equals wearing pads (the brand), love Ashey.L' you might not think it's funny, but i swear i laughed my head off. anw, left her house at 5.30. ohoh, I'm v exicted for my 3km run and swimming tmr! Claudia's gonna wear a bikini, well i'm begging her too. tmr's gonna be a major weight lost day! it has to be! 3km, and swimming! at least lose 1kg plss! i shall end here. bye.
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Sunday, August 29, 2010
I Don't Know Myself Anymore
MockingJay is out! Esabelle bought it. ): and I haven't! But, nevermind. I'll go get it soon. (: I bought lots of post its today. (: the purple one is really nice. I'm still sick, but I'm still gonna go to school. Think I'm dying soon. I don't know what to say alr. fuck english. I'm not even done with the homework yet.
alone once again.
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Saturday, August 28, 2010
Hardest part of life is
knowing that there's tomorrow
Didn't come here for two days. I'm so bored, I don't know what to say. I got this super bug pimple right now and it's really hideous. ): And that guy in Glee, the gay one, what's him name? He's really giving me bums man! ah, there's church tmr. And thanks to Michelle Chan, I have to go. Okay, I'm going to watch glee. byebye.