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Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore

Michelle, 050296
I'm not perfect, so deal with it.

Monday, September 5, 2011

it'll destroy you someday

hey there, long time since i got here. oh well, i rlly need a place to talk about stuff. you know, so I came here. so anyway, this blog post is for you, i hope you read, but i hope you don't read it too. yes i'm weird like that alright. so, i read some of your blog post, I'm rlly didn't mean to hurt you that bad ok. i'm sorry, i feel rlly bad. but on the other hand i got hurt too anyway. so do you call this fair? sometimes i rlly think i'm mad selfish, maybe i don't have to think that i am, because i already am selfish. i know that talking things out will work, because i always want to talk things out whenever there's an issue, but this time, it's different. something's holding me back, telling me no, you shouldnt you want to get hurt again? truth is I don't even know when you rlly hurt me. for the pass few days i cried, everytime you crossed my mind. the thoughts of how I used to stayover your house almost every saturday night, how we always sneaked out to meet each other, how we walked our dogs together, how we gave each other presents randomly because we got 'together', how we took care of your terrapins together. I miss those times so much, I miss you. so tell me why the fuck is something holding me back? Everyone's telling me to talk to you, but i can't. is it that I'm too ashamed, is it that I'm scared. what? idk, that's why I told you I was fucked, it's strange how I miss you so much and yet I say I don't want this friendship anymore. I won't mind throwing it away. I know I bitch talk about you alot, yes that's cause I am one. And I'm glad that you didn't do the same, so I feel that well you don't deserve a friend like me, because I'm rlly bad. Truth is no one deserves me. I'm rlly glad that there are actually people out that who love me, but I'm sorry guys, I will let you down in the future like how I always do. Well, I dont know how to change, to be a better person, it's so hard. sorry, it's so messy. well, there's just too much on my mind that I can seem to put them in place. Right now, all I want to do is hug you so tight and tell you that I'm rlly sorry for all the fck I made you go through and thanks. But no, that won't happen. Because I don't dare. And for those who have this until this far, thanks for reading all these crap yeah. oh and, not not some relationship, it's just a friend. A friend who is rlly impt to me, you know, like more then friends but less then lovers. ya. oh well, bye then.

Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore
Michelle, 050296 I'm not perfect, so deal with it.	Monday, September 5, 2011 it'll destroy you someday hey there, long time since i got here. oh well, i rlly need a place to talk about stuff. you know, so I came here. so anyway, this blog post is for you, i hope you read, but i hope you don't read it too. yes i'm weird like that alright. so, i read some of your blog post, I'm rlly didn't mean to hurt you that bad ok. i'm sorry, i feel rlly bad. but on the other hand i got hurt too anyway. so do you call this fair? sometimes i rlly think i'm mad selfish, maybe i don't have to think that i am, because i already am selfish. i know that talking things out will work, because i always want to talk things out whenever there's an issue, but this time, it's different. something's holding me back, telling me no, you shouldnt you want to get hurt again? truth is I don't even know when you rlly hurt me. for the pass few days i cried, everytime you crossed my mind. the thoughts of how I used to stayover your house almost every saturday night, how we always sneaked out to meet each other, how we walked our dogs together, how we gave each other presents randomly because we got 'together', how we took care of your terrapins together. I miss those times so much, I miss you. so tell me why the fuck is something holding me back? Everyone's telling me to talk to you, but i can't. is it that I'm too ashamed, is it that I'm scared. what? idk, that's why I told you I was fucked, it's strange how I miss you so much and yet I say I don't want this friendship anymore. I won't mind throwing it away. I know I bitch talk about you alot, yes that's cause I am one. And I'm glad that you didn't do the same, so I feel that well you don't deserve a friend like me, because I'm rlly bad. Truth is no one deserves me. I'm rlly glad that there are actually people out that who love me, but I'm sorry guys, I will let you down in the future like how I always do. Well, I dont know how to change, to be a better person, it's so hard. sorry, it's so messy. well, there's just too much on my mind that I can seem to put them in place. Right now, all I want to do is hug you so tight and tell you that I'm rlly sorry for all the fck I made you go through and thanks. But no, that won't happen. Because I don't dare. And for those who have this until this far, thanks for reading all these crap yeah. oh and, not not some relationship, it's just a friend. A friend who is rlly impt to me, you know, like more then friends but less then lovers. ya. oh well, bye then.